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Sobriety

So how long has it been, say…umm seven months? How times flies when you are having an amalgamation of  fun, misery and sheer dickery. Yep, it was during those tumultuous months that I was indulged in an emotional rollercoaster ride of sorts. I don’t know why I am not posting them, not that I’m too lazy for it but I guess I’m too busy going through those ordeals. But if you, dear readers (that means five of you, mom, brother, sister, nephew and niece) are very persistent of what happened to me during the latter half of the year, lemme get you through a brief rundown.

- Ondoy and Pepeng fury got our house underwater for days. All the while I thought ‘it was just a typical typhoon’ passing by. But WTF to the nth power! It’s got loads of water with it, literally pouring the streets of the metro. Tried scraping off the floodwater inside our 60-year old abode, but the knee-deep, lahar-like gush was just too much. Got a battered back after that.

- Girlfriend dumped me and got sperminated by some redneck douche. Oh watta time it has been! Got words of sympathy and encouragement from friends and family. But alcohol and a couple of sad songs really drowned me into feeling butt-ugly that time.

- Blood Pressure shooting up. Sleepless nights. Stress. Low self-esteem. Unhealthy eating and drinking lifestyle. Lack of Sasha Grey porn clips posted at Youporn. Those were just some of the factors my body went severly numb, knowing later that I had high blood pressure. Tough luck.

- Juggled my work chores as a Senior Web Copywriter, Project Manager and Champion Coach during our sports fest. Taxing, but a blast.

- Tried to win back an ex, whom by chance contacted her after more than a decade. Then knowing that she already somewhat engaged to his boyfriend abroad. So classy of me.

- Rammed into ton-heavy concrete barrier. Thought that my SUV got all fixed up by “Manong Mekaniko” nearby our house. But no, he lied. I went swerving like a hapless seal wearing off a predator shark. Cost me 13th month of salary, loan from Social security and big chunk of debt to my former officemate. Good luck to me paying that up.

- US Visa approved. Now here’s some glimmer of hope to my meager existence. During the wake of a friend’s grandma, I thought of applying of a US Visa. So I payed all the dues and application forms, scheduled an interview, and collected all the necessary documents that those ‘feared’ grumpy consuls might ask me for. Barely a month after tripping out to plan to go to the States, I got my own multiple-entry visa. Just like that, bitchezz. I thank Lola Loret for that.

One thing’s for sure, I never lost hope. I immediately went to the nearest church and prayed for thanking Him, not asking for help, intercession, or divine intervention whatsoever. I know I’ve got the balls to face what shit I will go down with. How challenging they may be, I am definitely up for it. Test of true character. Knowing where my potential will reach its limits.

Though I still have some tough gigs to do in my life, I’ve decided to make it point to take everything in perspective. Maybe make less of everything I did bad last year, or perform ‘more’ good deeds this year. Or maybe strive harder in whatever endeavour I focus on.

What’s so fascinating about the New Year is that it is full of hope. Planning for change is so geared up that nothing will stop you from achieving it. The hard part though, is to be consistent in attainig that change.

As for me, I already have drafted my storyboard with finality. Now to the execution part.

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